my habit

My habit
John Maynard Keynes once said that thought determines behavior, behavior determines habit, habit determines character, and character determines destiny. From his words we can see the importance of habit to one’s life. So we should have a clear recognition on our own habit.
Many of my friends say that I am a nearly vegetarian. From this comment you can say one of my big habits is that I prefer vegetable than meat.
I was a boarder student when I was in high school. The daily meal I ate was determined by schools and they usually cooked much vegetable while no meat. Gradually, I formed the habit of preferring vegetable. Not only at school, it was the same when I come back home. At first, my parents thought it may because I had eaten too much vegetable at school and did not adapt to the change at home. They believed that after finishing boarder life and keeping a diet of eating meat every day for a while, I would adapt to my new eating habit. However, things did not change. When vegetable and meat were on the table, I usually ignored the existence of meat. This habit made my parents worried me very much. They tried a lot to let me eat some meat. Sometimes, they may prepare meal in my bowl with a lot meat hidden under rice, before I get to dining room. They thought as long as I picked up the very bowl, I did not have any reason to refuse to eat the meat. Unfortunately, I always finished my meal with the meat being left.
I tried to change it years ago, but failed. Maybe it is the best for me. Who knows? Anyway, whatever is is good.
Another habit is that I do not talk to others when I am in a bad mood. Every time I meet something unpleasant, I would like to stay alone and refuse to talk to anyone. This habit was formed in the process of growing. At that time, many adults told us that we should bring joy to others instead of sadness. And our bad mood might have side effects on others, so we should avoid transferring it to other people. I followed their words. Since then, when I got bad emotion, I would like to be away from crowd, quietly self-medicating. As time passes, I got the habit of non-talking to others when I felt not good, even if it is a caring greeting from others. So, it became a bad habit. And this bad habit was first discovered by one of my uncles. Once a time, I lost my key and I was very worried. My uncle saw me and asked me what happened as I was looking for my key here and there. Instead of answering his concerns and thanking his kind heart, I continued my search work and said nothing to him as if I did not see him. He was very angry with my unreasonable behavior. Later on, he talked it to my parents. My father had a long talk with me the day after that. He said it was impolite of me to turn a deaf ear to others even though I was in no mood to greet to them. And sometimes, it might bring hurt to those who were care about me. He then gave me some examples to show the seriousness of the action and persuaded me to correct it. He told me that
if I wanted to stay alone, it would be better to explain it to others at first. I followed his words and try to control myself. Sometimes it does work. But more often than not, I get used to indulge myself in a quiet place where there is no one except me till I get better when things are happen. I think it is a good way to stop my bad mood from passing to others. And I can have an opportunity for second thoughts to the whole matter and to make myself calm down. I do not meant to hurt anyone, but sometimes things are just the reverse. Anyway, I am trying my best to correct myself from this bad habit.
Habit is the master of our life and we should know our habits, especially the bad ones, and try to take the essence and discard the dregs to make ourselves better and better.
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