So sorry but you are not alone

asking me to come
and hold you in my arms
i can hear your prayers
your burdens i will bear
but first i need your hand
so forever can begin
something whispers in my ear and says
that you are not alone
for i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay
you are not alone
you are not alone(you are not alone)
for i am here with you(i am here with you)
though you're far away(though you're far away)
i am here to stay(and you with me)
i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart
you are not alone
all alone
why, oh
just the other night
i thought i heard you cry
and you are not alone
oh...
whisper three words and i'll come runnin'
fly...
and girl you know that i'll be there
i'll be there
you are not alone
everyday i sit and ask myself
how did love slip away
then something whispers in my ear and says
that you are not alone
for i am here with you
在MJ离开那么久以后，我才开始坐下想写些什么。我用短短的几天时间去回想他漫长的我所无法触及的人生。
我知道我没有资格去评价他什么。我不是他死忠的歌迷，他的歌也没有伴随我长大。但就这样，仅仅回望，我满心溢出的狠狠的愧疚以及痛心疾首，让我不得不安静下来，我想说些什么。
当我开始触及英文歌时，MJ已经被丑闻缠身。那时他的新闻已多为负面。而他的音乐，那些真实，却被流言覆盖，被人遗忘。
流言的强大，让他十多年备受折磨。莫名的诘问，让他身体里那个儿时的MJ涌出的泪水一次次盛满早已成人的他的孤寂心灵深处。
流言如此强大，少不更事的我亦被其蒙蔽。我追逐流言并愿以其为真相。我终于知道，千千万万的我一同埋葬了他。正如阮玲玉所言，人言可谓！
可当他离开，那么安静，那么突然。
可当我自身陷入流言，无法辩解。
though you're far away
i am here to stay
for you are not alone
i am here with you
we're far apart
you're always in my heart
and you with me, not alone
oh, together, together”
我只能这样了。
我抬起头，窗前静谧悬浮着的云儿等待着不远处翻滚的云海给予的洗礼。
耳边回响的是MJ那熟悉的真相。
“another day has gone
i'm still all alone
how could this be
you're not here with me
for you are not alone
not alone
you are not alone, you are not alone...
you just reach for me girl
in the morning in the evening
not alone, not alone
for you are not alone(you're always)
in my heart.....for i am here with you
heart.....though we're far apart
heart.....you're always in my heart
原来，看似清澈的湖水也只不过是我们看不见它底部蓄势待发的墨色污泥。
我们一直都看不透。
我想也许是醉了，醉在这个流言主宰的地方。
我半眯着眼睛，塞着耳机，开始用心听那个遥远灵体简述他自己的故事。让他的真相流过我的躯干，冲去这个世界的“真相”。
随流言而来的真相亦将随它而去。
i am here with you
though you're far away
i am here to stay
you are not alone
i am here with you
though we're far apart
you're always in my heart
you never said goodbye
someone tell me why
did you have to go
and leave my world so cold
everyday i sit and ask myself
how did love slip away