丈夫留下的备忘录

丈夫留下的备忘录
你桌子上的书还是那么整整齐齐地摆着，你衣柜里的衣服还是那么整整齐齐地挂着，你总是把过季的鞋檫得干干净净放在鞋盒里，你的一摞鞋盒还是那样整整齐齐地在壁柜里放着。

你喜欢把一双双洗干净的袜子绾在一起，然后装进一个塑料袋，薄的厚的分开装，现在，那一袋一袋袜子也还在床头柜里静静的搁着。

可这些东西，怎么突然间都没有了主人了呢？日后，谁还能光顾它们呢？它们将永世地放在那里，寂寞地等待它们的主人，然而它们的主人却永远的地不再归来。

我抚摸着你的一件件衣服，我感觉到你依然英气的目光从高处俯瞰了下来，你温热的呼吸在你挺拔的鼻翼里翕张。

可当我拭去泪水定睛看你时，你怎么又不见了呢？我环顾空荡荡的房子，四处寻你。

站出来呀，亲爱的！
四壁回响着你的声音，我却看不到你的身影。

我终于明白，你再也不会站在我的面前了！
你再也不会在这座屋子里走来走去，我再也听不到你走路的踢踏声了，你走路原本是有着轻微踢踏声的。

我们的屋子还是那样的干干净净，地板还是那样的亮亮堂堂，书架衣柜还是那样一尘不染。

你走后我曾不想再收拾什么，我收拾的再干净，没有你分享又有何意义？可我又想，邋里邋遢又怎么对得起你！
我总是感觉你什么时候会回来，回来时我要用干干净净的屋子，干干净净的被子迎接你。

你生前我是这样待你，你也是这样待我的。

我总是做梦般地在屋子里找你，一间一间地找，我总觉得找到了，又觉得永远都找不到，我总觉得听见了什么又都没有听见，你总是这样痴痴地来看我，却又模模糊糊地飞逝而去。

我不会离开我们共同用爱和生命创建的家。

在这屋子里，我随时都可以找到你的存在，和你说话，和你交流。

无论天堂离人间有多么遥远，只要回到这
屋子，我就回到我们二人的世界...当我最终离开这个世界的时候，我还去找你，我们还做夫妻，我们还会携手再创造新的幸福家园。

我曾无数次感慨，你对家的爱与责任，是我一生的福气，你对生活精致的耐心是我活着的指望。

The memorandum that my husband left
The books that are on your desk always put tidily, and your clothes that are still hang over in the wardrobe, in the past, you liked to polish the shoes and put them in the boxes, even the style does not fit for this season, after that, I still remembered you collected all the shoes boxes in the cupboard. You liked to coil up all pairs of socks, later, you would put them in the separate plastic bags, thick had one, thin had one, but now, those socks are still put in the same place. However, why them suddenly lost their owner? In the future, who will take care of them? They will live on there, lonely wait for their owners, their owners, however, but never longer returned..
I touched every clothes you wore, I felt your heroic sight overlooked at me, your warm breath still surrounded me. Therefore, when I tried to dry my tears to find you, why you disappeared again? I looked around the empty house, found you everywhere. my darling, show up!
The walls echoed with your voice, but I can not see your shadow.
I finally understand that you will never stand in front of me!
You would not walk up and down in our house, I would not hear the sound you knocked, you may not know when you walked, there always had the hooves around you.
Now, our home still clean and fresh, the floor still bright, the bookshelf and chest still spotlessly clean. The time you left me I even cannot think, although I tidy it up every day, you won’t be here, where is the scene in t hat? But, if I became sloppy, how can I face to you!
Every time, I dreamed one day you would come back, so I always prepared the cleanly house and quilt. When you living, you done the same things to me.
I invariably found you in the dream, in our house, one by one, I always thought I found you, I felt I seemed heard something or nothing, you came to care for me, and later flew away.
I would not leave our home that we created use love and whole life. In this house, I could find you momentarily, talking to you. Whatever how far the heaven is, just came back to this house, I felt that we came back to our lovers’ world again…so, when I would leave this world, I would find you to be a couple again, and created our family once again.
I have numerous times with emotion, your love of family and responsibility, is the blessing of my life, expect your life exquisite patience I'm alive.。