我心目中的父亲(My father in my heart)

我心目中的父亲(My father in my heart)

我心目中的父亲

(myfatherinmyheart)howtodiscribemyfather'scharacatorseemedveryeasyin thepast.but,maybei'vegotwrongandbeenwrongallthetime.inthepast,when mynaturemotherwasstilllivingwithus,hehadasavagemoodwhichoftenfright enedbothmymotherandme.aftertheygotquarrelled,afightwasunavoidable. maybeafightcontainsmisunderstandingsofboth,butinthoseday,ithoughtthat itwasallmyfather'sfault.ihatedhim!hewastheghostinmylife!www•wheniwas sixteen,mylifechangedbecauseofthedeathofmymama.shewasbadlyhurtina homeaccident,andthoughthegodshebelievedhadnopowertorescueher.from thenon,myfigurechangealot,fromanaughty,passionateboytoaquietanddiffid entboy.ididn'twanttotalkwithanyone.myfather,howeverwasseriouslyflustra ted,healsohadtotakethereponsibilityofbringingmeup.duringthatveryhardm oment,ononehand,hehadtostandupforthetragedy,ontheotherhand,hehadt oworkhardtosupportmyeducation.asinthattime,allmegotinhandwasonly30 00yuan,ifisucceededinenteringahigherschool,atleast,wouldcost7000yuana year,that'snotamoneyofbit.i'vealwaysthoughtthatimustbethemostunfornat eoneintheworld.whenigotfrustratedinlife,i'dnowheretoexplainasi'dbeenus edtoexpressmyheartachetomydearmotherandnowshewasn'tthere.everyti meisawthemothersandsonspassasideme,ifeltsosorrow,andiknewhowlongly iwas!iwassureindeediwasthemostsorrowone!buttomyfather,howdidhefeel

whenhelosthisbeloved?maybetheniwasreallytoyounytoobserve.ionlyknew hewasveryverysad.iheardthatwhenmymotherwasinhospital,helaiddownon hiskneestoaskhelpfromthedoctors,andwhenthedoctorshakedhishead,hene arlywantedtodiewithher!someonesaidthat"thoughtheyquarrelledalot,butt heyreallyloveseachother".beforethosedays,ionlygetclosedtomymother,and oncetheyquarrelledorfighted,shewouldhatedhim,however,tostandwithher e,ihatedhimdaybyday,sometimesievenfelthimjustlikethedevilinmylife.i'ven everthoughthewouldbeinsuchasorrowness.myauntswouldcomeandseeme everymonth.theytaughtmethatishoulddowhatevermyfatherwantmeto,tilli' vebeenaman,couldgetawayfromhim.iknewwhattheymeant.ioftengotonune asywiththem,andihatedthemtokeepanshouldeyeonmyfather.tometheyreall yhadapityonorfeltsomeresponsibilities.butihatedpitymost!nothingcanbebe lievedfromtheother'smouths.imadetheconclusioninthepasttime.manyaper sonwasfondofdiscussingtheothers.theygothappinessesfromthedepartment ofotherfamilies.ithinktheyareallthemut,foolmonkeys!nothingcanbemorest upid!!!iunderstoodhimwiththeincreasingofmyage.ichangedmyopiniontohi mduringthatveryhotsummer.hewasworkinginaeletricallinefactory.duringth oseunusualhotdays,heworked10-

15hoursadayforanextraincome.buthefellillseriouslyafterthat,despiteoftheill heinsistedonworkingyet.atlastheilledtobed,takingamedicinecare.icouldthin kabouttheheavyburdenonhisshoulders,andicertainlygotshockedbyhiscomp